Demon Angel

Sunday, January 14, 2007
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Ya...u can guess frm the topic...my granma passed away..(granma on my mother's side)
It was on Jan 9th the incident which caused her death occurred.....she choked on rice during dinner when she had jus eaten a few spoonful of rice....my uncles who all saw my granma suffocating all dint know wat 2 do.....they had no skills of such in emergency or any life saving skills of tat sort......ambulance arrived in 5 minutes....I was onli fast enuf 2 reach my granma's hse 2 see her lying on the floor, ....unconcious.....the medical officers tried 2 make her breathe...but 2 no avail..an equipment of some sort tat they use keep repeating "no pulse...." i was stunned ....the onli thing i can do dat time was 2 help carry my grama onto a trolley of some sort....n they rush off 2 nus hosptal...i dunno wat 2 sae 2 my mother n uncles.....my mother was already crying...after informing my father one of my uncle , my mom n me rush 2 hosptal in taxi.... we were waiting for long hours in the counselling room in hope of hearing news tat may relieve us.......when the doctor came...she said "we tried our best....she had lacked of oxygen for 2 long n her brain can no longer command the heart n lungs to work...we can onli use medicine to temporarily sustain her heartbeat...do u all wish 2 see her for de last time??" it was shocking....but i was nt able 2 cry out like the rest of my family....i kept quiet....n seeing her in tat kind of state, i tot i was having a nightmare......my sis, who loved my granma very much...cried, n in a soft voice she asked "y mus tis happen 2 u on my birthdae???"....yes, 9th jan is my sister's birthdae....b4 i could do anything, we were asked 2 leave....my family haf decided 2 remove life support to alleviate her suffering...she would nt b able 2 breathe anymore.......

few minutes later the doctor came again saying" the patient's can breathe again, its a miracle but she wouldnt b able 2 wake up even if she can survive...." ya true...her brain is already damaged....we all left except for my granma's youngest son....
it was after i fell asleep, my father received a call from tat uncle in hosptal wif granma saying she's really gone....
in early morning my father told me when i was jus abt 2 leave 4 school....."had my granma jus wanted 2 persevere to the very last moment?to make sure she didnt die on my sisters birthday, bcos she had heard her voice???"i thought tis way......but i will nv know..........

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6:58 AM

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FINALLY HAF TIME 2 write abt orientation !!! yay!

Lets see...ya. orientation 1st dae got into ogs hor, kinda confusing wif the funny group names, using names of mythological(watever my spelling) creatures.My grp is caladrius haha.One of those cooler names for grps... nt like johnny in naga.haha.1st dae boring lo..got boring dae wif boring games.second dae the fun starts.Got to learn a single dance n the games r more interesting(mayb stupid oso??)Gotten wet bcos of water bombs....the orientation video oso got wat??year 5566 ??funny arh!dae 3 was best. games kenna got mud n water plus soap summore..wth.well i dint get so muddy at 1st....but got tis gal frm mgs in my og smeared the mud on her hands on my shirt...wth.so sudden got dirty....i tot" walau!!! aiya heck la go all out get muddy liao!!" den chiong until my shirt kenna soap n mud.lol.the video was very stupid oso...the bad guy dunno tok wat kinda language in the video but the subtitles say"What he actually means is....I have killed the oracle.I am good" lol !!den second part "I am super good". the third" I am super cheem" Farni arh!!!!
tats it for orientation la.

Few daes ago we got a house meeting n guess wat my hse is "tan kah kee". Walau y they use ppl name??but at least the cheer can b funny......"who u wanna be?? KAH KEE WARRIOR!!!!" lol . den they wanna select ppl 2 take part in inter hse competition. Tis gal frm crescent sabo me say i frm cross country last time...den dat guy wan me sign up...heng i PRETEND 2 sign up n pass on....anyway join oso sure lose..last time competition all kena last place xcept for national inter sch cross country ....also there is another gal in my og whose best 2.4 timing is 2 seconds better den mine...she 9.10 me 9.12...walau i feel so lousy.....hell la.....our og actually doing quite good nw la....got one guy 2 be the rep by voting(got him into trouble) feel so sry for him he had to manage the whole grp well ... Lucky i dint get voted ah....
tats it for acjc thing

Sefyr signs off~~~~~

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6:33 AM

Friday, December 22, 2006
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When the end of our time in secondary years breached the line to the end, what is left in the barren path will be me and my past. Buddies and friends all continued like a wind sweeping through the plains but I held the classroom door in my dreams thinking "Is this another end of the happy life again?".Fate will be the answer to our prayers that may our bonds be able to withstand the torrential tides, and go through catastrophic times together.....

May the starlight in the skies be able to penetrate the misty clouds like our frendship able to change our life

Sefyr~~signs off

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7:57 AM

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saw tis on the girl's blog n haf fun wif it too...lol

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1:30 AM

Wednesday, December 20, 2006
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SM here,

After the prom, i know i will lose contact with some friends again.
Say, it is hard to describe the feeling everytime this happen, but at the prom a, a sudden surge of feeling took over me. I don't wanna separate with these good friends like i did 4 years ago."Regret" is the most simple and suitable word to describe my feelings now...
I remember when i first set foot into fuhua, I onli know Xiang Bin, Xiao Wei and Yuan Shan as they my pri sch classmate. Man....and 2 years ago I was giving up hopes on friends, classmates and hated everyone...everything in my class.I had been bad tempered to everyone during the 1st 2 years in this sch.I must admit i owe everyone in that class an apology.Sorry to them i should say...maybe they can't even see my apology that i owe them for 2 years.
I was having problems in CCA and socialising in class that time that none of the days i passed was a happy one.Maybe thats why when anyone laughed in class i thought they were laughing at me...I started to hate classmates, myself ad people...everyone.Maybe my self esteem was low, maybe i just deserve it, i don't know, but now i realise it is partly my problem.
Friends had helped me curb my negative feelings by mid sec4, now friends i thought were sarcastic does not appear so now. I wanna see everyone again, not like a stranger, but still as close as we are now, or even better.
These people gave me my most happy holiday ever and changed me totally to a more happy person.
Friends may quarrel, may not understand you.Just keep in mind that every quarrel arise from misunderstandings and every misunderstanding serves to emphasise a need to foster closer bond.
Say a word of thanks before risking to lose contact-thats what i have in mind right now. So many words left unsaid that i find it hard to make a start for myself too. My greatest regret, however was the failure to try my best to keep a good friendship bonds with my friends.some friends i noe for 4 years, i have spoke less than 5 sentences to them. Some others i can't get myself to talk to, others just make me feel like im a moron.This is a failure on my part....

My point is that now i no longer care who would see me as a best friend, but i would like to keep the fondest memories deep in my heart and to treasure what i have now.I will look forward to a possible chance to see my pri sch friends although it will never be the same again, a the same time i will like to see everyone in my....our class remains together.
So you know Guan Yu, Zhang Fei and Liu Bei?Let us have our oath to stay brothers....must not forget any single one....
SM Sefyr

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5:37 AM

Saturday, December 09, 2006
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Seriously speaking I never had a good holiday before, it was always stay at home for my usual games. This holiday is different in the sense that I have class outings.I had my share of fun!This is my best holiday ever and it will always be.
Went to sentosa just yesterday, had a good time despite the hot weather and the high expenses........also build a "sand castle" which looks like shit.....wait where is the photo?
AHHHH Johnny havent sent me yet.....what the hell.. Hope for more class outings to come, but to minmise expenses is another concern. Well, think about it when the time comes.....
no photos today....

Sefyr~...signs off

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5:49 AM

Monday, November 20, 2006
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One boring day modifying psp data....

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6:29 AM

Friday, November 10, 2006
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4:45 AM